In Your Loneliest Walk You Are Not Alone

You know how you listen to a song and never really listen to the lyrics? Well, I haven't paid attention to the lyrics on this particular song. The other day I heard the words and they left such an impression on my heart that I had to share it with you.

The Loneliest Walk- David Osmond
(Listen to it here)

She pushes L on that old elevator door
Her heart is broken, arms are bare
The doors are closing and she’s staring at the floor
There’s still a piece of her up there
It seems like yesterday she saw her on the screen
Painted a room and picked out names
But now she has to leave her under big machines
To keep alive her tiny frame
She’s on the way to her car, but it’s never felt this far

With each step she takes there’s another to follow
And one more ache, one more tear to swallow
She’s gotta keep moving
Forget about the bruising inside
through the loneliest walk of her life

He pushes up his glasses, staring at her name
One last time before he leaves
He saw this coming but to see it now, engraved
It's still so hard to believe
It seems like yesterday they kissed and made their vows
Her favorite flowers in her hair
He's staying later than they normally allow
Clutching those flowers in a prayer
And on the way to their front door, no hand to hold there anymore

With each step he takes there's another to follow
And one more ache, one more tear to swallow
He's gotta keep moving,
Forget about the bruising inside
Through the loneliest walk of his life

He pushes up the board they’ve tied onto his shoulders
He bears, with dignity, disgrace
He hears the jeering and the wind is getting colder
Tastes the blood upon his face

His body bruised and back still open from the scourges
The consequence of wicked men
He knows no man on earth has ever deserved this
But still he bears it all for them

And He keeps moving up the hill to do his father’s will

With each step he takes there’s another to follow
and one more ache, one more tear to swallow
we all stand by and watch as the price is paid
Through the loneliest walks of his life
so we don’t feel alone in the night
we can have his hand holding the light
through the lowliest walks of our lives
Keep pushing through this lonely walk you’re going through
Cause someone’s walked this way before

Sometimes in life it's hard to take the next step and the next one and the next one. It can be rough but I know that we don't have to walk alone. He is there every step of the way. I have felt Him lift my burdens and strengthen me when they couldn't be lifted. I know He loves us beyond measure. I know if you turn to Him He will be there in your loneliest walk of your life.

Journal Time!

My finished journal

 I had a really awesome journal that I just loved writing in before my mission. There are priceless memories recorded in that journal. For instance, Christmas that year was amazing, then there was my experience of singing in general conference and of course my decision I made to go on a mission is recored in those pages. I knew my mission was going to be an opportunity of a lifetime so I bought a new journal, a moleskine journal at that. This journal has a cool pocket in the back and 240 pages of college lined paper and just plain amazingness.  When I bought it I never thought I would ever finish writing in it's pages but I did! It is filled! Front and back! Not only that but it is filled with the memories I have created over the last 17 months.  

It's huge!

That's nice Sister Kahrs, you write in a journal. Whoopdie do. The main reason I write in a journal is because of the gospel. The fact that I can relive great times is amazing icing on the cake. I really started to keep a journal because of what an apostle of the Lord said back in 2007; that apostle: President Eyring. In this particular talk he gave was about keeping a journal. He started a journal one day when he felt the Spirit tell him, "I’m not giving you these experiences for yourself. Write them down." His father-in-law was helping him with something that need to be done on his house and instead of his father-in-law calling someone in to fix it he repaired it himself. This really touched Elder Eyring and that is when the spirit inspired him to write down how he saw the hand of the lord in his life and in the lives of his family members. 

I Have a Vision

As missionaries we are instructed roughly every 2 months in what is called a zone conference. This is to help us be more effective missionaries to better help our Heavenly Father's children. In this particular zone conference President Bunker, our mission president, talked about goals. I thought I heard it all when it came to goals. That's because as missionaries, we set goals everyday so we can be effective missionaries; so goals are something talked about a lot. However, I was wrong and the Spirit proved it to me when President Bunker started to teach.

He talked about having a vision behind our goals and then making plans to accomplish those goals. To illistrate his point he "picked on" a missionary and started to interrogate them. He asked if they saw themself getting married in the temple one day or having a family one day (for more on the temple check out I Am Menasco's blog post about it ----> HERE) . He went on asking questions along those same lines. I don't remember the rest of his questions, because my mind trailed off. These are things I have never tried to give too much thought about because it's too far away. Don't get me wrong, I know that getting married and having children one day is a blessing the Lord wants to give me, but I have always thought that "one day" is far far FAR away.